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2010-01-21T20:25:00.000+08:00

2010-01-17T20:30:00.002+08:00

some random shakesperean insults..

Thou rascally decayed ingested-lump!

Thou tongueless plume-plucked death-token!

Thou obscene tickle-brained hag-seed!

my favourite:
Thou greasy dizzy-eyed ruinous-butt!

i'm still not ready to be sec4, yet here i am BEing a sec4.
it's really not fun when you have to mug for exams and worry about your aggregate not being low enough to go to the JC/poly that you want.

come on man, even me, the used to be carefree girl that watches TV all day long is worried.
i feel guilty watching tv now, like wts!
dont know what JC to go, dont know what subjects to take..

i rather not have choices, in case i make a bad choices and regret.
but good or bad, there will be things you regret.

this is not fun!

(ps, i dont like coffeeshops all of a sudden)

2010-01-01T15:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

will update when awake.
ciao

2009-12-29T20:19:00.002+08:00

the time has come to choose.
what you're going to do.
how you will use all the knowledge you have gained.

the year ending AGAIN.
remember the time like in Jan, you keep wishing time would fast forward.
Now, i'm wishing it would just pause.

How cool would it be when life creates a remote that has the >>fast forward<play and //pause controls.

memories are meant to be remembered.

2009-12-25T14:49:00.002+08:00

lalala.

Now i know something you dont know.

i had a most awesome-est christmas yet.

2009-12-18T05:39:00.002+08:00

off to school in 20mins...
off to JB in 1 hour.
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all I want for Christmas is, SLEEP!
hah
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wont be back till the 21st
anything important just msg me, but i wont promise i'll reply.
ciao~

2009-12-08T07:39:00.003+08:00

Off to Taiwan..
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in 5hours+.

the only thing i am excited for is that funny feeling when you fly off and land in the aeroplane. other than that, er.. not so excited.

anyways, wont be back till 13dec.
ciao:)

P.S eileen please try to have fun without us.
P.S.S amalina, please try to take care of that crazy woman above^
P.S.S.S I'll miss you guys! and... :)

2009-11-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

mind over matter.
are you sure?
do you know how stupid it sounds coming from your mouth?
i just find it so hard to do.
words are nothing unless put into action.
i'm trying, really i am.
it just doesnt come through to you that i'm already doing my best.
i can say 'i am good'
but what is that when really, i'm not.
--
sh*t, wally shut up!
i hate this critical factor!
it's so annoying!
but i just cant find my wilfred..
willy cant find wilfred...
sad :'(

(only those that went for the mentality workshop knows wts* i'm talking about)
--

homework not done yet but who cares?!?
i'm going to enjoy my holidays for now.
KL tmr
Taiwan 12days
JB 22days.

rush everything else in the free time that i'll never have.
well done charis.
you WERE suppose to do ALL your homework by end of Nov but no.. you had to drag it out.
WELLDONE! GOODJOB!
when you get back. you suffer! watch out! this guilty conscious is after you.. muahaha!

2009-11-22T18:47:00.002+08:00

in places no one will find all your feelings
so deep inside
it was there that i realise
that forever was in your eyes
the moment that i saw you cry
--

i'm sorry she never got a miracle.
she did, it was you.
--

have you ever wonder why you were placed on this earth?
what is your purpose in life?
no one can tell you what it is, till you find it on your own.

those that love you for who you are- that's your parents.
those that guide you in the right direction- that's your mentors and teachers.
those that criticise you to be a better person- that's your siblings.
and those that follow you wherever you go- that's your friends.
and the one that has all the above qualities- that'll be your true love.
--

just watched 'A Walk to Remember'
okay, i'm kindda slow to only be watching it now... but still..
it was so touching! i was moved to tears. :(
isnt it amazing how movies change your perspective?
how love comes in all types and form.
you'll never know what it feels like until you felt it on your own.
i still waiting.. ..
--

if you've read till this sentence. congratulations. haha!
but realise that it's all about you?
about feeling it yourself, witnessing it yourself, experiencing it yourself.
do you ever get sick and tired of yourself?
I DONT THINK SO.
so get up, get out and just be you.
--

those that dont like you, dont know you.
those that know you, wont deny loving you.

2009-11-19T20:18:00.003+08:00

friendship.excellence.respect.
--

what happened? i asked.
i think she hates me now, she answered.
why?
cause i screwed up, i'm such a loser.
no you're not! the one who's the loser is the one that doesnt possess the above 3values.
,
that's worst.
huh? why?
i dont have the above 3 and now my friend hates me. thanks alot! *walks off*
*O.O*
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haha! BPLeague is semi over, because of the rain (and maybe free stuff) we're going back tmr to finish it off. get it over and done with.
it was quite fun, except the part of registration and the ending which made JOLIE damn stressed! we laughed alot especially about BLOOD and PAD! :X(randomly thought of topic)
thanks people (amalina, jolie, woonsin, shihui), i thought it was going to be such a chore but it turned out fun! EXTREMELY FUN!
cant wait for TAIWAN coming in 18 days! omg!! damn fast la.
--

27-30nov: KL trip with aunt n bro.
8-14dec: Taiwan trip with vballers
18-19/21dec: JB VB comp/ ELBC camp
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better get my homework done real soon to relax in dec!
cant wait! cant wait! cant wait!
--

you found hope, you found faith, found how fast she could take it away.
found true love, lost your heart, now you dont know who you are...

2009-11-18T21:56:00.003+08:00

they were the friends everyone wanted.
and you thought you were the luckiest of all to have them.
but when the time comes, when you needed them most.
they vanished.
you were so scared, so alone.
no one was there to comfort you or just sit beside you.
all because of one thing you decide to do.
that is .....
.
.
.
to be a pretender.
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stop being one.
and start being yourself.

Be careful what you pretend to be, because that is what you'll become.

Life is not about seeing you in everyone else.
but in creating your very own.

It's hard to fail, but worst never to have tried to succeed.
------

isnt it ironic?
we ignore people that adore us, and adore those that ignore us.
we hurt people that hurt us, and love those that hurt us.

What the hell is wrong with people? or is it just me?

2009-11-15T21:13:00.003+08:00

this shouldnt be so difficult she said.
all i hear is tuition tuition tuition.
but you've done this before.
so? what's the point? nobody cares.
do it not to show people, but to prove to yourself, you still have it.
and i AM going to do it, tomorrow.

what if tomorrow never comes?

then i'll just perish like everyone else.. ordinary-lly.
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just watched 2012, and it was kindda cool how the mainman just manages to survive.
but it got me thinking. will the world as we know it come to an end?
by 2012, i'll be studying J2 at some random college.
and maybe just maybe, have this amazing guy by my side.
but it's in the future, no one knows what is going to happen?
i could just vanish after typing this...
.
.
.
.
no, i'm still here..
still, this proves nothing. you'll never know what is going to happen, to you, to your parents, brothers/sisters. you'll never know who your true love is. you'll never know what it's like to freefall off a cliff.. all these things you've planned, it never came about, why? because some idiot just decides to drink and drive? or because you were just at the wrong place at the wrong time?
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i wish i'd known you better before i realise, i dont know you at all..

2009-11-14T15:23:00.000+08:00

what's the point?

2009-11-08T19:54:00.004+08:00

i hate mr avis, i hate mr avis!
I DONT GIVE A DAMN about what the hell you're gonna do. suspend? detention? bring it on! i'm not afraid of you! it's just one freaking ass day. just because you're a teacher doesnt give you the right to ruin my life! you can try to brainwash me, but whatever you say will go out. i dont care what you do, as long as it doesnt affect my everyday life, I DONT CARE!

totally ruined my mood for the holiday.
i'm debating whether anot i should do your homework. maybe i should so that i dont have to talk to you or listen to you rant about how lazy i am -OR- that i'm UNDERPERFORMING in respect to my ability. WHATEVER man! you know what, i hate you. i'm not going to be rascist, but the thing is your too _____ for my liking. while, maybe i'll just be a avis racist. newly created by me, anybody wants to join? the aim of this group will be to discriminate you.

i know i'm suppose to live and let live. or, forgive and forget. but no. to you, i'll be eternally hateful towards you. thank you for messing up my whole damn secondary school life. thanks a million!

i'm kindda happy for causing you all sorts of trouble. and cursing and swearing at you under my breath. just one more year and i'll never see your _____ and ______ face ever again.
toodles:)

2009-11-07T21:41:00.002+08:00

doubtful doubtful doubtful.

starting to freaking hate my life!
(not just my life, also some... ARGH!people)

shall think positive and cheery :):):)

after chineseO, i shall rush ALL my homework.
determined to finish it by nov.
*ability to finish homework installing*
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.
.
.
*0.001%

LOL!

i'm surrounded by smart people yet i'm not getting smarter.. what is this?
what's my problem?!

2009-11-01T21:59:00.002+08:00

the end of sec3 is nearing...

read 'the' blog, cant believe that we went through so much...

all i remember was that in sec1, i came to know this weird bunch of people that soon became what we call BPian volleyball team. was stressed multiple times for no apparant reason. cursed and swear at vlee for making us feel so useless! haha.In sec2, animal farm! how i love animal farm~.. Cdiv made it to top4, guys got the natchamps. BPband comp, 06blink cheering comp, songwaves, cardselling CIP, bazaar. hated the neighbouring building cause of PT. many more...

Now sec3, wow, time passed really fast.. i still remember crying my heart out cause the seniors were leaving.. making a promise to make it to nattop4 and achieving it. scolding a teacher. patching things up. slacking through junhao's trainings, hated him for being ___. only realising his importance when that assTC kicked him.
this year made me think a lot about WHY things happen? WHY me?

I know i've been an ass to alot of people, just wanting to make them pissed (for idk what reason), gossiping about ppl behind their backs, just being an hypocrite.

from what i know is that, i am not a nice person to hangout with.
i know i'm a hypocrite, YT once said that everyone is, and i dont have to feel guilty about it. but i cant help it.

i've been putting up this front to not show others what i really am, fearing the fact that my weaknesses will be used against me. or am i just scared that my trueself will not be accepted by the people i know, my friends, my family?

i'm been acting more of an ass with each passing day. more and more unbearable. but the more i think about it, actually i dont care. i can be as idiotic as i want, cause those around me dont bother. or they just dont want to hurt my feelings? i have been stupid all these while and they accept it, so why cant i just accept myself?

I think i have PMS! though my __ have been over for quite some time.
just want to thank those who have been putting up with my nonsense all this while, i know how tough it is to pacify someone this stupid, idiotic and random+unpredictable.

one more year and all this will end~.
:'(

2009-10-20T15:09:00.003+08:00

birthday girl

group pic

group pic candid

behind the scene people's candid

behind the scene people

2009-10-18T19:02:00.000+08:00

PEOPLE, HELP ME!

Q:SHOULD I CONTINUE MUSIC?

pros: music...
cons: failing...

2009-10-17T22:00:00.003+08:00

oxygen debt repaid, sleep debt repaid. anything else i havent done?

suddenly having so many days off, i realise i kindda sorta miss studying. shocker right? i scare myself too sometimes. i just suddenly have this motivation to study, just plain study. no distractions no nothing. after having to do that for the past exam week.

feeling kindda loser-ish after getting my music results. should i continue? i'm not even good at it. maybe i should concentrate on other subs. but it's music! who else has that chance to study it? confused.

oh, btw, 3L1 got into the semis for the interclass handball comp. though we didnt go into the finals, the thing is, i dont care! cause we totally bonded and had so much so much FUN! (shulei even jumped for the ball, that's a first!) welldone everyone, even thanks to the class for cheering us on! really appreciated it, (could even hear Mr Mattlim shouting "Come on L1!") haha!

only now i realise that L1 can be really really bonded if we wanted to.
I LOVE L1! they rock my world, together with my family and the volleyballers.
i really appreciate everyone now, just have this feeling to say a huge THANK YOU, to everyone.

back to me, haha! feeling really down suddenly. dont know why..
cant wait for the sentosa outing to cheer me up! and TAIWAN!

goodluck to all graduating classes for your Olevels! better stay band1(so that we can have a day off again) :)

random note to self: LOL; study randomly:)!
-offline-
cant wait for.. .... ......

2009-10-04T20:25:00.002+08:00

“Cant you hear it?” you said.

“When you love someone, you say their name different.

Like it’s safe inside your mouth.”

-Jodi Picoult-

I know God will not give me anything I can’t handle.

I just wish he didn’t trust me so much.

–Mother Teresa-

2009-09-28T13:15:00.002+08:00

have you ever felt so helpless?
like there's nothing you can do..

yesterday was suppose to be a good day, birthday celebration at home for my dad.
caught the F1 on TV, alonso got 3rd.!
then before everything else started, jordan felt faint and started have fits..
and all this stupid sister of his could do, was stand there stunned.
I was so scared.. it's totally firsthand drama. not in a good way. ambulance came and phew..
then i freaking failed my violin AGAIN.! i thought i could pass and focus on my school exams.. but.. crap la.. plus the EOY stress.. this is a huge setback for me..
i'm really really scared. and stressed. never like this before.

i just wish that life could restart and i'll make better decisions.
but on the other hand.. if we dont fail, we wont experience the happiness success would bring..
such dilemma..

i dont want to do this anymore..
i wish time would just..
stop.

2009-09-18T23:16:00.003+08:00

i'm freaking gonna cry...

i wont say goodbye.. cause it wont be pleasant..
i hate you for going, and love you for the wonderful memories..
i'll definitely miss you..
have a great life... :)

(from facebook)
God says it's gonna be ok..

i hope so..
*attempting a smile*

2009-08-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

useless useless useless.

2009-08-20T19:42:00.003+08:00

i feel damn loser...
such a failure!

Are you happy?
sometimes i feel like i can relate to Montag...

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though i called you donkey many times, made you angry;pissed;___(inserts adjective)
but truthfully, i'll actually miss you.
'you'll only cherish something when you realise you're losing it.'
'I suddenly realise i didnt like them at all, and i didnt like myself at all any more'
just one thing.. WHY?

national day 2009

2009-08-09T16:01:00.003+08:00

I LOVE SINGAPORE!

~HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU; HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU; HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!~

Had celebration on friday! it was da bomb! oh my freaking gosh, it was so cool..! definitely the highlight of the whole year.! (even MR Lee was partying! ROCK on, yea?!)
the sour thing is that.. training.. dont want to talk about it.. not a happy moment..

MOVING ON!

MEP! super funny!! funniest session ever! i want more!
went home and then made someone jealous... muahaha!
(GM i'm not talking about you... oops!)

I wish school could be more like that.. sigh...
anyways, have a great NATIONAL DAY people!

(suggestion on how to make Nat.Day special:
wear red and white and run around your neighbourhood singing happy birthday to Singapore.. that'll be so awesome!)

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY TO:

JITCORN AND HAZIM!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

2009-08-04T18:23:00.001+08:00

center stage

2009-08-01T12:47:00.000+08:00

I HATE BLACK AND WHITE!

argh!

2009-07-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

man oh man! i've never been so pissed with someone in my life without him making me do anything. i just cant stand his actions everything he say or do is held against him. omg! i'm angry! ROAR!

2009-07-13T17:38:00.002+08:00

chinese oral = gone case! cannot make it..
gonna get suaned by.. ! argh!
i will work hard for my other components!
jiayou!

btw, other pictures will be up not so soon.. :)
darren must be like.. "phew" haha!

opera!

2009-07-12T21:13:00.002+08:00

FUN day!

2009-07-11T18:58:00.003+08:00

'but then again.. maybe bad things happen to remind us what good is..'

masks..

2009-07-05T20:23:00.003+08:00

If you spent your life concentrating on what everyone else thought of you, would you forget who you really were?

What if the face you showed the world turned out to be a mask... with nothing beneath it?

2009-06-20T18:07:00.002+08:00

missing you,...

camp!

2009-06-09T14:32:00.000+08:00

PLATOON 15! whoosay!

ohno

2009-06-05T20:55:00.000+08:00

NO! cannot be affected.. nonono!
just go away.. argh!

why dont parents understand?
seriously, why cant i just shut out my feelings when i want to?
i wish that i can stop feeling for just a moment..
i'm scared..

2009-05-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

JIT CORN! CHEER UP!!

you better cheer up cause i posted this specially for you.. haha!
limited time only..

adam khoo learning experience

2009-05-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

LIVE operation! was a success! haha!

frankly, at first when i saw the place, i saw the 'bed', i saw the toilet.. i was going 'how am i going to survive?!?' but in the end, i survived and i proudly say, i DID NOT REGRET one bit!

Day 1:
PLATOON15! met our PM(platoon mentor) vivian. "which part of me looks like a sir to you?!?" quoted from her;her favourite line cause we always reply, 'sir,yes,sir'. she was funny.. so first day was BMT! instead of 3 months, we graduated in 1day! we were given a sticker saying "I CONQUERED BMT!" haha. the highlight was the minefield crawl, i can say i was the cleanest!! haha. smart crawler..
had a hard time sleeping on the hard bed.. was super WARM! they placed a fan right beside me, was damn happy,.. in the end, cannot on,.. cheat my feelings..!

Day 2:
woke up at5.. when normal time was 6!?!
STAND BY BED, was crazy! had 84 mistakes so had to do 420success claps which was crap! then the guys had 90 mistakes.. then total we had to do 920claps altogether.. CRAP! was there random-ing with zhiyee and hanis.. funny people.. brunch was army food which was disgusting.. kelian army people.. battleship contact game was fun.. the highlight was the entertainment by the PMs.. then COnight was fun.. we danced,well more of JUMPed.. haha! was super super high.. funneh! then PM dance.. that night we slept soundly-er cause got fan!! haha

Day 3:
'graduation day', or 'appreciation day' where we wrote love letters to people... encik sham gave a motivational talk..

overall was a really great camp where we all got to know one another better and just bonded as one whole big BPian family.. the PMs were an amazing bunch of hilarious sporty people who just impacted each and everyone of our lives and it was just extraordinary.. the only i regreted was not being able to give a 100% and be open on the first day. If not, i could have enjoyed more.. the camp should have been longer.. it was too short to fully embrace the campfeel.. it was really undescribable..

to PLATOON 15,
it was a hell fun a time being with your.. you guys were super high and funny.. and we really were one team and had one voice.. we didnt say try.. we can! and we never fail, only had learning experiences.. i'll miss this time together with your.. hope to talk to you guys more in school.. THANKS to PM VIVIAN for guiding throughout this camp.. you gave 'speeches' and impacted my life so much.. and that night.. i was really sleep walking!! haha. we had fun...

to MAJOR PANTHER,
panther WHOOSAY! haha.. hail PANTHER! *peace sign* the cheering;the atmosphere;the bond.. something that cannot be re-enacted.. but it will stay a memory that i will always cherish.. PM BOON.. thanks for taking charge of this major and just making us all enthu and high..

camp was amazing.. and really hope that something like this will come up again.. cause the feeling is just great!! had hell loads of fun!
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Midsummer night's dream play..
was humourous.. interesting.. had a fun day with halidah,carlyna,zuhairah and nakita(?).
full lit outing again!! haha! class-ist..
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I HATE CAMPs!cause i'll always end up loving it so much to let it go.. the memory is treasured!
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1:choices have consequences
2: no failure only learning experiences
3:if i cant, then i must
4:do it once;do it fast;do it right
5:ONE FOR ALL, ALL FOR ONE!
(6: there is no try, only can or cannot)
goal>strategy>action>success/failure>learning experience>change of strategy>success
[success plan]
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2009-05-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU ALL! trainings!!

camp

my birthday celebration

nat fourth

MYE period..

2009-05-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

being chairman is becoming not so fun...
i hate exams period!
study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study!!
i cant wait for the holidays!
sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep..

why are you so quiet??!! be more social!

midyear

2009-05-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

ok.. some MATHS genius ask me to update.. (thomas i dint say it's you)haha

so what's been happening recently?

MID YEAR IS HERE!

still not in the mood to study yet...

but i dont want to disappoint ms AZA, so better get started soon..

been feeling really emo recently, dont exactly know why.. stress? maybe.. but it only hits me at night.. maybe because nighttimes are too peaceful and makes me think about problems too much.. i remember someone told me, if you cant sleep means you have xinshi(problems).

but i dont know what xinshi i have! why cant we think simpler? why arent there simple solutions to hard problems? im staying strong now.. but.. hai, you'll never know..

JORDAN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!.. 2may. my younger brother's birthday.. (oh also mr TAN, trainee PE teacher.. chuajeng's.... oh nvm.. haha)so,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR TAN!..

celebrated jordan's birthday today instead.. cause he's checking in tmr.. again.. sad, on his birthday somemore.. haha.. had pizza and cheesecake.. weird combi.. i'm so going to get fat! when is training resuming?!?.. i miss trainings! but not the PT.

i'm not born to do maths! i cant think around the box.. i declare that i'm a loser in mathematics!

but i'm going to try..

at least you tried..

25/4

2009-04-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

oh.. and..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIYEE!

2009-04-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

Libera is an amazing boy's choir..

argh!

2009-04-22T21:02:00.000+08:00

why is it that when i feel that i understand, i realise i dont.
now all i want is to relearn what was taught.
i want to concentrate.
i need to focus.
why do you make it so difficult?
do you know how annoying it is not to understand you at all?!

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME WITH.. MATHEMATICS!!

Mid years are coming and i'm still stuck in the past.
can you believe that i owe 5newspaper report,1letter writing and 2exercises for ONE subject! CHINESE!
and 10over exercises for AMATHs. and 5exercises for EMATHs. and 1EW and 20over vocab exercises for ENGLISH and 1CME assignment.(wth)and loads still on its way over..

THIS IS CRAP! everything is becoming a chore..
what's the point? it's just plain dumb.

(p.s.. i'm talking to ultimate 'geniuses' that are super random!)

2009-04-19T15:11:00.000+08:00

whoa.. one week of not going to school and you'll end up with tons of unfinished homework.

tired.tired.tired.

pictures

2009-04-05T12:38:00.000+08:00

I’ll remember you...

2009-04-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

Why must it end so fast?
‘4th month of the bloody year’ only.

I’m so tired.
I should’ve trained harder, trained smarter.. if only I had..
If.. If.. If.. time cannot be rewind so we just have to look ahead.

You guys were seriously the monkeys that made me look forward to trainings.
You guys were the motivation for me to carry on.
You guys were there for me when I lost hope, when I broke down.
Now, without your, where will I find my pillar of strength? My motivation?
Training wont be the same ever again..

NO: lingying and her ‘charis~’
Fara shazreen and her theories
Xinni and her doubles
Dionne and her butt smacks
Chinyee and her pinches(?) and cold jokes
Amanda and her laughter
Guihua and her winks and high-ness

I’ll really really miss you guys (this is where the waterworks start)
We were wondering what will we do during our first training..
I think I will look for fara.. my senior setter that always paoqiu with me.. then realize that she’s not around.. then I’ll start emo-ing but act.. then when training is over.. I’ll break..
I hope I don’t.. but.. I’m not that emotionally strong..

We have to ping! All the way. Set targets now.. and work hard! No slacking..
Get it back.. (I want revenge!)

A*****e: seriously.. I think what I commented was right.. I find no fault in that.. I don’t disagree with what you sacrificed for us but,, .. think about it, I’ve never heard encouraging words from you.. all I hear is ‘I want go home’ or ‘da hao lai leh’. We’re humans too.. we have feelings.. and since you know we’re not that mentally strong, do you still have to suan us like that? We just lost this crucial match.. yet you treat us like losers, (ya we lost.. so?) our last match. Our last time being a team.. I know I shouldn’t have said you like that.. since you are afterall an authority figure.. but you don’t show us the due respect yet you want us to respect you? Wth! No way.. I can frankly tell you that I don’t have respect for you no more.. you lost it yourself. Spare a thought for us, we’re students, we’re girls, we’re mentally weak.. yet you still add salt to the wound.. cant you just SHUT UP?! Some of them actually said I commented correctly, I scolded well.. so I don’t feel bad scolding you, I feel bad that I made you lose face.. afterall, you’re an adult..
If you have nothing nice to say, just keep your damn mouth SHUT! Just go away.. I’m happy you’re not the TIC.

(^don’t ask me who or what happened, or I’ll be pissed again)

So.. cheer up guys.. I’ve said what I wanted to say..
I’ve trashed it out..
Like vlee said, ‘you should be happy, you’ve reached your target’
Ya, nationaltop4. not bad already.. think about it.. we were so close to losing in top8.. to be in top4 was a miracle.. so, it’s okay.. cheer up, we’ve reached our set target.. now, it’s up to the next batch of Bgirls to set the standard even higher.. jiayou, let’s do this together! Seniors, you’ll always be in my heart.. never ever will be forgotten.. you’ve planted the love to deep.. I’ll miss you guys! (waterworks still in progress)

I think I have to cry myself to sleep tonight..
1st: state of depression
2nd: state of denial
3rd: state of rejection
4th: state of acceptance
5th: state of recovery.

I’m currently stuck at stage1.. ( waterworks still unable to stop)
Let my batch have a great year ahead! Jiayou! Cheer up and remember your smile is what brightens the day for someone..

national top4!

2009-03-31T22:06:00.000+08:00

It's the first time EVER that i cried LAUGHING!
oh my gosh..
you guys ROCK!

and,
I got so upset for NOTHING! you 's'es, i wasted my tears! you know how precious water is nowadays? now, we still have time together! and NATIONAL TOP4! so let's CHERISH THE MOMENT!

and,
ZHIYEE is damn ANTI-climax~! cannot stand her!! HAHAHAAHAHA!

and,
JUNHAO! you finally got your dream of nat.top4!

and,
please guys, my birthday is on the 9/april! (I expect.. :)) 8/april is the day of the finals so if you guys could.. that would be the greatest present EVER!!

and,
I'll MISS YOU! ~lalala~

oh and,
THANK YOU LORD! for answering my prayers..
always remember... PRAYER WORKS!!
trust in Him

It's finally time to SHINE!

indecisive-ness

2009-03-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

i actually had fun at training today!
whoa!
played everything but setter..

BIGGEST JOKE OF THE YEAR!
1.5+m setter played center blocker.! haha! that's me..
fara played libero! omg(O.O) ! haha! but she's good. (hope she doesnt see this)

I think i sprained my hand.. so irritating.. how can a setter be a setter without setting?!
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I thought of giving up..
being stressed. being pissed? being in pain.. that's so not fun.

I went to Chinyee and said:"I want to change job. be ballpicker.."
What a thought for a fighter!
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I'm being paranoid. or over sensitive?
i'm fearing the place i am given.
why? how? when?
ya, i admit i dont like being a setter.. (this is like a tradition)
but i'm trying.. i'm fighting. that is no way that i'm giving up that easily.!
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why are there different auras in these 2 places? not good..
fun/relaxed compared to stress/pissed.
aura GO AWAY!
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I just realised i changed my subject 4 times? this proves that i wrote everything that's on my mind.. not everything but summaries.. if i actually wrote everything.. I'll start shooting people and we all dont want angry people.. hah! I'm stressed.. AGAIN!! NO!

I'm losing my mind! someone.. anyone please help!

??

2009-03-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

I want it all back!
everything!
I lost the thing i thought i had!
why now? why not then?

????????????????????????????????????????????

eileen have been bugging me for these pics.
140309/Sentosa/partial Cgirls07 outing.
here goes..

See those 'kiasu' "aunties" HAHA!

this^ is draw by.. her>

Cgirls 07! BPVB!

TADA!

champions

2009-02-21T15:25:00.000+08:00

BUKIT PANJANG GOVT HIGH SCHOOL

Bdivision volleyball girls- west zone CHAMPIONS!

my gosh! so cool!

congratulations to Bboys, Cgirls and Cboys.

234 respectively..

it was so awesome! the match. the atmosphere. my buddies were there cheering them on. so cool! against shuqun for both divisions.. cool man. ahh~

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CT1 just started. friday was SS and english.. man, i think i wont score well.. sad.. time to study!

oh~ and wednesday marks the start of NATIONALS.

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3/3/09! piano grade 8 exam! soon! less than 2 weeks. intensive training!

seoul trip

2009-02-03T19:58:00.000+08:00

Man oh man oh man..! today was super duper amazingly fun and satisfying for a hungry stomach(s).

Firstly, I was super punctual only to realize everyone wasn’t there yet! 1245! I called lingying to hear that she was still at home, not surprised. Then called zhiyee, she another one at home, also not surprising. Then yuanteng,jiayu came. Followed by xinni and woonsin. So we went walkwalk in causeway. Then Amanda found us at 77^th street with zhiyee close behind. Then LY called and say fara is here. Go hide go hide! We thought hard on the places fara will never go.. so we went to METRO! Haha..

LY found us there and 4 of them wore the same pants! Yuanteng,zhiyee,xinni and lingying. Funny..~ anyway, LY, XN and Amanda went to buy cake, so the rest of us when to SEOULgarden. Zhiyee doesn’t know how to reserve tables properly. (Met Eileen and group there.) while we were like ‘hiding’ we were like fugitive on the run. Crazy Jiayu even suggested we go hide in the changing rooms of Metro. Funny!

The funny part was when zhiyee was taking food, and yuanteng and I went disturb her.. fara, farah, chinyee, hazirah, and guihua came. We all ran back like we saw ghost like that.. damn hilarious. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to FARASHAZREEN and HAZIRAH!

Then eat, eat, laugh, tonguetwisted, laugh, eat, took photos, eat, toilet, out. Then walk walk again. Then home!for some. I went to join Eileen they all at the arcade. Play abit then go home.

Today was amazingly FUN! And we should do this more often! Soon… now let’s do well for west zone.. maybe after we win, we go SEOULgarden again to CELEBRATE! Time to lose weight after eating SO SO SO SO MUCH! Seeya!

ahh~

2009-01-26T21:44:00.001+08:00

I’m in LOVE~

With a guy so random! I’m a crazy love-sick person..

S.O.S!

fear.

2009-01-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

Our Greatest Fear

it is our light not our darkness that most frightens us

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,Our presence automatically liberates others.

—Marianne Williamson

Music Os

2009-01-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

First week of school and i'm, well... dying! haha!

anyway..
FIRST music Olevel class today.
went for piano then walked down to ACSI to meet JitCorn,Jeshrei,GeokMin,Jiayi(?). walked in then met Benjamin and seniors.

then the FIRST teacher we interacted was with MR WONG! he is lame! crappy! and (kindda) funny! attendance mark.. then Benjamin is really really stupid-ly funny. me and GeokMin sat behind them and we were laughing like nobody's business.. super funny man!

an example:'is fishcake a cake?' super random la.. then throughout the whole class(3hours+) we were joking and laughing about this girl who was kindda pissed with us(or just Ben) because we were super noisy. (all ben's fault!) now we have a special action.. !

okay then about class.. was overview-beginners thing(Ms Ng 1hr+)-ability test (Mr Phua 1hr+)-songwriting(Ms Ng till class end)..

class end.. at 555, 5 mins before 6. then waited outside for Ben's senior. waited like an hour +plus. crapped with Mr Wong and group, about the ghost stories in ACSI and music and army and impression and fortune telling.. super random and funny..

[GeokMin was kindda freak out by the impression/fortune telling thing..]

finally left and now i'm here wasting about 30 mins thinking about this and still laughing about it.. this was a really good end to a weird/funny/lame/tiring FIRST week of school.

highly rated.. stupid

2009-01-03T20:51:00.000+08:00

hai.. hai.. hai..

SHATTERED( like what Zhiyee keeps saying)!

why?
just like my really amazing mentor/rolemodel/friend/senior said.
take everything in your stride...
dont accumulate things... in my case it was pressure/stress/fear.
poured everything out to my dear dear counsellor/lecturer/motivator.
kindda feeling better but tired. very very tired. emotionally/mentally/physically.

a really sad/pathetic/embarrassing/stupid/lousy way to start to the new school year.
it's okay.. next point/time/day/moment.

setting is still as lousy as ever..
to tell you the truth, [(frankly personal things were not often posted.. so be honoured that you are able to read this.. -.-")]
i'm trying.. but seems like the more i try the lousier i become. fara also told me to stop pressurising myself. the reason why i'm not improving is because i'm NEVER relaxed. always trying to stay strong infront of people has a negative inpact on your brain! it just causes mental breakdowns.. i really want to pour out all my problems but.. to who? she asked me to find THAT person but who? really.. i dont know who can tell me what to do/advise me/guide me.. or maybe i'm just not used to sharing my problems out cause i feel that it will just burden them..(?)
i grew up teaching myself to be strong, never allowing people to see my weaker side.(yes, i'm ego-istic) but as years passed in BP, the weaker and weaker i become. weird.. i thought with age the stronger i should be?

i have the desire to be a good player. i want to make it far. but all i do is just making it worst.. i feel lousy.. oh well..

anyway... [today][SMU friendly]
i got my service back.. i think.. i hope..
oh btw,, i got into 3L1! same as Zuhairah, Allisa and Eileen.
ZU! another 2 years with you! sufferings and laughters.. we're going to have a great time.*evil laughs*

eating lunch with yuanteng and jiayu can cause stomachache man! laugh a lot! all the random stupid comments and actions they do~ they really are crazy/stupid/dumb/lame people. haha!

average week

2008-12-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

I cant win Minesweeper!! irritating..

ANYWAY...
Christmas eve celebration was ... not as high as expected..
remember all the past christmas(s) ? this year was totally UNexpected..

came straight home after celebration at KayPohRoadBaptist. service was okay..
The FOOD was GREAT! i could eat MORE! but sadly.. there was none left.. (see how good the food was?)
plan-ned to watch movie and stay out all night at someone's house.. but house(s) not available and the movie was expensive($9.00+) just for a midnight show?!? so forget it.. took the last bus home.. that was how boring my christmas eve was... maybe should have joined Zhiyee's house party.. NEXT YEAR!!

THE NEXT DAY..
sleep! sleep! sleep! sleep!
that's the most i can remember.. SLEEP!

FRIDAY..
training at 10! was punctual.. reached at 10 exactly.. heng..
run-paoqiu-freespike-run(again.. 20 rounds)-3mandefence-service-formation..
totally cant play properly these few trainings... sh.. 2 more weeks(as stated by amalina)
-buck up charis!-

here comes the fun part..
it is a FACT that 10 people including the driver can fit into a normal 5-seater car..
and we have the evidence to prove it.. :):):)
9 of us- xinni(who got to sit infront!), fara,farah,chinyee,amalina,jiayu,lingying,woonsin. and me can show you again if you dont believe..
were we lucky that the car tyres didnt burst? and the driver.. my gosh.. he's SLOW!

TODAY
match with fairfield.. won. but quite slack.. went for piano then went back CLEAN! to meet those stinky people who were slacking at the hall.. okay, fast forward abit..

wanted to go eat as a team.. but then.. people want go play with dog.. so majority went to Chinyee's (animal shelter?) house to find the 4dogs.. i should go there some time.. and get myself a pet soon?, hmm..

so we took junhao's car to.. IMM! and past by the flying part.. wee.. then parking.. -no comments..- then we had a hard time finding a place to eat.. in the end.. BURGER KING is where we ate.. (everytime go IMM, without fail.. I'll eat at burger king..)
then HOME.. and SLEEP! i really can sleep man.. suppose to wake up after an hour's nap.. in the end.. i slept till DINNER.. which was like 4 hours later?! wow..
[Sleeping has become my best friend and a favourite past time..]
everyone should try it.. it's fun!
my longest time was 20hours.. what did i do to sleep that long? i wonder,, hmm..

here i come.. SLEEPing buddy! that's sounds wrong.. ?!? go to sleep!

drainage system?

2008-12-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

PHYSICALLY and MENTALLY DRAINED!

Tired is that one word to sum up what I’ve been feeling these past few weeks..

Yes, I admit it was FUN. But it is really energy-sucking. I’ve already tried sleeping and slacking seems like it doesn’t help at all!

Christmas is round the corner.. Presents aren’t ready, homework isn’t done, packing? My books aren’t even bought yet.. Having only a 2-months break is NOT ENOUGH! I repeat, NOT ENOUGH!

We should teach less and learn more through play.. haha. This sounds like some pre-schooling advertisement or something..

Brother was hospitalized today… starting the 38 weeks of Chemo soon.. cancer is scary.. remember he’s only 12years old. Like not many 12year olds go through that.. the lucky thing is that he has us.. haha.

Quote of the day. (this so doesn’t apply to me)

Fear gets you NOWHERE,

But confidence brings you SOMEWHERE.

-charis-

camp and stuff..

2008-12-13T07:50:00.000+08:00

what the... I was so tired that i slept from 6pm yesterday to today 730am! 13 hours straight!

See what the camp has done to me?!? i'm still tired. haha.
camp camp camp camp camp....

Frankly i think i'm still mentally unconsious.. physically i'm awake. so I cant think!

All i remember now is that training was tiring cause of the footwork (I have no stamina!).
Lunch was nasi lemak from the nearby hawkercenter(Day1-setA, Day2- setA plus hotdog -.-)
dinner was pizza! for the last night!
Body aching due to LACK OF SLEEP! and sleeping on the hard floor!. ouch!
The dance practices was super fun and hilarious. cause of all the wacky ideas i came up with(at least they used the stretching part. haha)
and i remember getting bullied by chinyee because of that. HAHA!
waking up in the morning was the WORST! 515am! the sun hasnt risen yet! (i dont remember waking up so early like.. ever!)
And the pictor-nary(?) it was so FUN! remember the kailing drawing? me and my no-link thinking. haha! thanks fara for the comment. and our bunk won the prize(CHOCOLATE!)
Ghost hunt.. like it was so lame at first then you start imagining things... and farahiyah totally scared me at the toilet! Boys toilet somemore... what the.. and Jessica was so BRAVE! We completed the task eventually. (yay)
Syazana voice was so.,.. COOL! she was having sore throat for almost the whole camp. and i totally couldnt hear a word she was saying.. haha.

btw, my group has the most number of people, 5! while others had 4.
anyway, those rocking people were
ChinYee, Zuhairah, PohHian and Jessica and,, Me!(their leader-.-)

So overall, i think this camp has really bonded us(Bdiv and Cdiv) together. at least knowing each other better. and accepting each others differences..
Like jiayu said ( while we were rushing to 7-eleven for lunch) "once you open your eyes/doors you can see your closest friends." now when it has already ended being back home, you enjoy the comfort of your bed/TV/computer/snacks!/homecooked food!
you will still miss the part of being together for the whole day.. having fun together.. crapping together.. making each other laugh.. eating together like a family(stated by Jolie).. it's really touching.. now after all the camps(KL and this) it's back to your normal lifestyle.. boring.

after spending this 2 weeks with you guys,, I will miss the waking up and seeing you for the whole day.. laughing at every tiny thing laugh-able.. spending time washing clothes together, brushing teeth and washing up and eating.. we were really like a family.. This camp serves the time for us to be together and we really made use of it to get closer, made use of it to be like a family.. I really had fun.. (luckily, i didnt get emotional) I think i grew stronger too! haha!

now i have to choose between doing homework/watching TV/sleeping/making breakfast.
hmm... hard decision.

p.s
[my mom has just boarded her flight to Cambodia for mission. pray that she will be kept safe and healthy and enjoy her work there for 10 days..]
[my brother went for a biopsy for the tumour in the leg.. and will be going for a CT scan and bone scan next tuesday to check if the cancer has spread anywhere else.. doctor prognosis is cancer, the actual results will be out in 2 weeks time..]
[with all this going on in my life, it's a miracle i've havent had a mental break down.]
[ maybe due to the camps or packed life, it has distracted me someway.. but pray!]

KL PICTURES!

2008-12-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

btw [small eater- at least i share my food... and i dont kope people's food lor, i only kope-d yours.. :D]

2008-12-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

i'm back~!~!~!

malaysia trip malaysia trip malaysia trip.. lalalala~

it was an awesome experience. we should do it more often.!

will update pictures and some interesting events that went on during the trip.

wait for the updates, now i still need sleep!

[btw, who lives in room 1430?!]
whoever that person is, she's definitely not a small eater.

Life science!

2008-11-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

139) Lim Lisi Charis

English

Higher Mother Tongue

Emaths

Amaths

Chemistry

Biology

Social Studies+History

Literature (English)

imagine me getting into Higher Mother Tongue. and doing Amaths and Pure Lit.

Shocking isnt it?

Choir is on Thursday and

Training is like everyday for the rest of the week.

wow. and finally we can use CCK!

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good luck you guys for U13.

you guys are good.

so just believe and with confidence you will overcome.

so make us proud!

Life

2008-11-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

What's life?
Zu asked me that random question yesterday.
I wanted to reply but couldnt find a proper language-d answer.

so what's life?
Is it meaning-ful or meaning-less?
Life is just a period of time we have on this earth?

To a religious person Life is to preach to people who is God to save them.
To a teaching person Life is to educate the young for a better future.
To a learning person Life is to gain experience to better themselves for what's to come tmr.

seriously, this is crap. I have no idea whether this even makes sense,. does it?
read Syaz blog. it may be more understandable than mine.

In short, Life is Life. enjoy it,love it,hate it, it's still your life. It's given to you by grace, by mercy. Therefore make full use of it, cause you'll never know when it'll end. It might just end tmr. It might just begin for someone else. Life is Life.

~It's just another ordinary miracle today.~

rainy training.

2008-11-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

just read the tag board..
sorry for not replying the tags..
there's kindda a lot so.. sorry.

But I just to thanks you guys 'THANKS'
i didnt know that you guys were there for me.
I was clouding my mind up with worries and stress.
It was so much there, that i just push you guys out totally.
asked for advice but, just didnt want to accept it.
So thanks.
and yes, yuanteng, i'll try to apply it. so the equation should be
[Charis trys= things applies= yuanteng/charis is happy. :D haha]

Choir in the morning.. then waited a super long super tiring. 30! mins. for people to go eat lunch together. then foolishly decided on LJS which we eat so much of until.. but to reduce the taste.. we went to get cookies and ice-cream. which this girl here kope one mouth each.
so beware people i may strike anytime and anywhere for anything. haha then we walked to school while playing with ALLISA's new LG touch motion phone.
Zu has like high scores for alot of games. argh!

It rained today. no training. but a long,long,long discussion.
but as the finance "minister" i cant work without a budget.
so with each commitee at different tables of the oh so 'big' canteen.
I went to disturb them. especially the foodies. :D
it was BORING!
btw, there was a super nice display of fireworks at BPGHS. Kailing and I were amused by how it totally blends in with the weather. And the colour was unbelievable. pure white/silver.

so i was kay-poh-ing at the malaysia trip thing when, woonsin took out the high tech thing and dear lingying showed her the new tactic. the smiley thingy.. :) yeah man.. cool move.
then we crapped and laughed. then chinyee and i played ball.

slowly coach joined then fara then coach left. then fara left. then amanda join then hazirah joined. then we invented a new game. we didnt call it a name but it goes something like 'who-controls-well-enough-to-hit-the-ball-over-a-white-pipe-without-touching-the-wall-and-only-with-2-touches.' tada! the new game. haha.
it was fun. so overall today was a fun day. ending with yuanteng and jiayu are you-zi(childish) people. stupid-os.

I tried.

2008-10-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning feeling like a winner. But at time went by (which was fast) it didn’t seem that I could win. I was horrible. Why am I even allowed to play? Frankly I really really, well, sucked! I was like back in sec1 where I didn’t how what the hell setting was. I was worst than every one else. I was a LOSER! I wanted to give up but couldn’t because if I didn’t I’ll be letting everyone down. I needed a guide. The damn guide was missing. The coach wasn’t there for some reason. Vlee appeared and immediately disappeared. Fara couldn’t coach me while she warmed up (it’ll be selfish of me to deprive her of her critical warm up). The people outside the court wanted to help but didn’t know how to. The people in side, I have no comments whatsoever. Why did things turn out this way? How could it turn out this way?

It was really a let down. I thought she improved, well she did, but they have no chemistry. I also think I have no right to criticize any of them. What makes me think I’m better than them? I’m just as horrible.

This is the reason I HATE U16. It always makes me think that I’m a pariah. Which I shouldn’t be thinking about. I have to be strong and hard but it is super difficult. The fear is back. The fear of disappointing everyone who believes in me. Especially after what happened today. Why me? You should have seen me. If you did, you wouldn’t have said that. You would have given up on us, on me. I’m scared!

I don’t believe I can. I believe that I will fail. No matter how hard I try or how much I put in. I will FAIL! I feel like giving up. God, help me. I really need you now.

I hate reality. It’s like I love sleeping, why? Because I can dream of whatever I want. But once I wake up it’s like, with each passing second, I grow older and I can’t stop the process. No matter what, reality hurts. Yes, I admit I can’t face reality. It’s true. I have to grow out of it. Then I have to grow, which I don’t want to. I want to go back. Go back to times where we had fun, where everything was perfect. But I cant, therefore I hate reality!

Done. I have ranted everything out. It’s out!

I tried to forget. I tried.

crap

2008-10-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

This is crap!
that's why i hate U16!
It stresses me out.
mental breakdown.

PJ first training.

2008-10-21T20:41:00.000+08:00

I have the pictures that my "dear,dear" senior,CHINYEE [[a.k.a daYEE(bigyee) known by ZHIYEE who is xiaoYEE(smallYEE)]] , "told" well, more of "forced" me to post..

This is not one of them but..aint this cool?!? MERZ! @.@

Lingying was raffles for one day.. haha

Syaz was fantasising on how to eat her burger.. haiyo just eat la.

I'm tall!

Oh no. syaz being BBQ-ed

Hardworking seniors!

-No comments-

WARNING: Next pic is A LITTLE obscene

.

Syaz ACT hot! The whether was hot therefore kailing was shading herself.
Where's syaz?!?

The people!

Point somemore.. poh hian extra.. just joking. When did we have dancers in the team?!?

Farah blocked the shot! But take a look at allisa in the background.. what's she doing?!?

WE ARE SUPER-SETTER-HEROES!

You see the random person on the floor twisting? That's CHINYEE.

I’m pissed! Not because the court was weird; not because this was the LAST training; nor because training started late; nor because we kena scolding; nor because I didn’t train properly... Rather it’s because we are always the ones being sacrificed! Why? Have you seen the guys sacrificing for us? NEVER! Torturing us? DEFINITELY! Why?

So what if you’re guys?! So what if you got National Champions?! So what?!?

Does it mean that we are very lousy, we aren’t worth being trained?

Does it mean that you’re the greatest?

Does it mean that we have to give in to everything you’re doing?

I THINK NOT!

I am pissed!

Why are girls discriminated?!

So what if God made us from MAN –or- MAN was created first?!

So what if you think that we are not as superior as you and thus we can’t do it?!

Please, come on, we are living in an ‘equal’ society. We are allowed to do the same things you’re doing. And yet we’re the ones sacrificing again.

Plus, all the rest of the things you guys DON’T want to do, you push it to us GIRLS. You know how irritating it is?

I GUESS not. You know why? Cause you’re guys! You will never know what we girls feel. I wish sometimes that you guys were gays so you could understand us better... well I guess that will never happen huh...

Btw, if you, meaning readers, are reading this… I can’t believe that I wrote this in PERFECT ENGLISH! Zzz

I’m stressed!

U16; violin and piano exams; choir; O level music.

Imagine all these problems buzzing/fogging/clouding your mind at night/while your sleeping/resting/in the toilet…

You can’t possibly ask me to sleep with all this in my mind. Nor can you expect me to sleep with my eyes wide open.

I really don’t like things overcrowding in my life! It’s very irritating!

I wished that I wasn’t so clever/talented/smart/busy.

A bit self praise right? Anyway… hai… what can I do?

Nothing but live with it. You can’t ask me to go back to the past to redo/retake/undo my choices. What’s done is done. No correction. Do that in the future/present. People say “Live life to the fullest”, well better not or you’ll end up being stress like the person typing this, ME!

This is long. 383 words… Not bad... COOL!

That was fun typing. haha. have fun looking!

pictures

2008-10-19T21:03:00.000+08:00

okay, exams was long over. well, just 1 week plus.
dont really feel like saying too many things... so let's take a look at PICTURES!

Home Econs test.

cousin's wedding dinner. 60th storey!!

super classy..

random gathering after EOEOY

the 'zzz' jiayu.

the 'blur' huiyan.

Zu's sis. she's adorable. you should look at her super cute younger brother!

Poh Hian's birthday; getting bullied?!?

The group. + -ppl

Our prize winning invention.

Our prizes. $800+4($80)

My gorgeous teacher/bride.

well this was kindda what happened during the week plus minus things.

snacks!

2008-10-11T21:18:00.000+08:00

OREO and milk are superb when snacking

APPLES too!
yummy~

now on to..

training resumes on wed.

not awaiting that dreaded day.
the damn day we check the damn sheets of cut wood they call;
"Exam scripts."
*sighing

well we shall as syaz say,, enjoy now;cry later.
I just realise we do have a lot of 'off' days these few weeks.

mon-tues>marking days
wed-thurs>checking days
friday?
mon>level meeting (no school)
tues-wed> post exam act
thursday>last day of school

dark-side
*ta-da! end of school
oh my gosh!
end of school!
that's super duper ultra fast!

bright side
going KL right after end of school.
SHOPPING SPREE! GIRLS'/LADIES NIGHT(S) OUT!

[i misss you.
sir, pls talk to me
i really cant stand the silence.]

over!

2008-10-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

EOYS ARE OVER!!

Today was the last paper for sec2s officially..
Edlyn was like talking about the guys wearing long pants and our red nametags.
cant imagine time flew past just like that. my gosh.

Anyway, we are going MALAYSIA~! training la..
woohoo~!
Finally! super happy.

okay,..
me and the girls went to the court and ... crapped. what else could we do?!
but it was great! super fun! and pictures!

hai.. almost packed for the weekend again..
cant wait for Ms Teo's wedding! excited!

haha, i'm using GREEN! lalala~
crap.

think?

2008-10-07T21:01:00.000+08:00

since almost everyone else has posted about exams, and since great minds think alike.. i shall not post what they post..
so post what?..
hmm..
hmm..
think think..
still thinking..
seems like my brain aint working..
aww.. how sad..
studying to much,, NOT!.
I like totally read through(emphasize on the READ) notes only..
so if i get crap results i dont be shocked.
*sighs* *sighs* *sighs* *sighs*

off to do science notes.. see ya! soon...

2008-09-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

forget it..
I dont know what to do now..
I'm too tired to think.

show me at least a tiny glimmer of hope..?
I'm totally crushed.

forget it.

hmmm...

2008-09-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

my results is on the average side..

A1-1
A2-1
B3-3
B4-1
C5-1
C6-1

come on..it's not bad okie?
----
today the 7+2m-1+2e
came to my house to watch PS. I LOVE YOU!
the storyline is kindda nice but it's not really as romantic as i thought it would be...
but everyone was so engross in the kissing scene... haha... nobody blinked!
super funny.. next destination... ALLISA's hse!
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frankly speaking.. although i wasnt there...
i roughly have an idea what's going on..
i felt is was totally our fault or maybe he's..
we separated ourselves from your...
maybe or.. he separated so much so that.. we sometimes forgot your were there..
i'm really upset. really really upset.
sec1? now they're going through what we went through..
once bitten twice shy?
i dont think so..
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i hope history doesnt repeat itself.
i hope the present will change for us.
i hope that there will be a future for everyone of us.. including you guys!

there is and forever will be a place for you guys..
maybe not where your thinking but always in our hearts..
soaring together with heart and soul.. we will strive for excellence!

CIP

2008-08-31T22:02:00.001+08:00

today...
went for the YMCA's CIP. it's super hard to sell stuffs. even to foreigners...

first we went to changiT3.. zu is a good seller... by the first 5 mins she already sold 1!
okie then we spent 1 hour+ there
then, skytrain-ed to T2 spend another 1+ hour there...

trained to orchard.. saw a lot of student sellers... got hungry..
huiyan suggested to go BPP eat..
spent 45 mins searching for 190 and the correct direction to go BPP.

finally on board... ppl slept..
makan at BPP then went hse to hse to sell the cards again...
at blk _ _ _... we met... DEFA! haha..
he's like super nice... he accompanied us to 2 blks..and carried our load and then made us LOST!
or just made us walk super long just to find blocks 181 and 178... walk through jungle and almost swam through a canal... haha!

in the end we just went back to BPP. only when we finish then zhiyee come join us...
xiaojing! you super funny man...
so slacked at the garden plaza. our conversations are like 3/4 full of laughter!

wait.. the ppl that went was,, xiaojing, zu, huiyan,yuxian, kailing, pohhian, me and finally zhiyee.
so left for home at 6+..
now so early still so tired...

1+1X0 =?

1X0X1=

i'm half consious already...
so we sold 78 packs altogether... average of 8 per person...
in reality, i only sold 4. 1 at changi; 3 at HDB.
still have 21 more packs to sell.. very xinku...

i think the illnesses from the buddies on the bus yesterday got transferred to me... i'm having block nose... irritating block nose!

looking forward to choir badminton tmr... jiayou charis!

P.S.. only now do i realise that all my posts are quite lengthy... so hard to read... without resting your eyes...
holiday mood!

ripcurl!

2008-08-31T21:30:00.000+08:00

dude... i got no sunburn! woohoo~

yesterday,
RipCurl had it's annual beach volleyball comp...
actually.. could win... but then some people had to go to 7-11 to eat... fine...
eating is essential for a healthy diet... ???
so played only 2 out of 3 games.. and won both!
then,, just play/bond/crap/took pics all at sentosa...

my precious is gone!
the only beach volleyball i had.. it's gone!~
hai...

pictures pictures pictures...
lazy upload.. dont even know where's the cable for the cam..
so forget it...

so bathed, then caught up with the rest.. (they're the best ppl in the world.. they didnt even bother waiting for me... no,, they forgot about me... no wonder they're my friends..)
so monorailed back to vivo..
congratulations defa! 1st ride on the monorail!
Jolie too right? not the first but still... congrats!
actually me too... not the first but still... yay!

then eileen, huiyan, pohhian, henghuat went off first..
so me, yuanteng, jiayu,kailing,jolie,hanzu, defa, yaocong went to the nearby cafeteria to eat...

the funny thing was that.. we walk 2 rounds? finding a table.. then another round finding something to eat.. amazing right?
and that dumb-y yaocong go point out something at the stall that got us disgusted...

anyway...
we had western. yt,jy,kl,me sat one table; df,yc,hz,jolie sat another table...
our table super funny lo...
we laughed ourselves full!
rmb the tissue, the utensils, the uncle, super funny man...

after that went to candy umpire, then to subway, then to the bus interchange...
when walking we saw our friend.. RAY! and company.. sorry didnt know their names...
talk then my shoe split! the sole was like practically dropping off...
so at the bus interchange...
we almost thought we lost jolie... cause she say she want take 963.. then she change her mind take 188 never tell us...
so bus-ed back home with defa,yaocong and lingying.. everyone was like sick... i think...
soon i reached home sweet home..

that concludes my post... super long man...

pictures should be up by this week.. i think or at least uploaded... or sent via email...
make full use of your holidays! :D:D

i blame time!

2008-08-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

Last day of term3!

SO FAST!

seriously, 24 hours a day is not enough!

gosh.. the book i'm reading now is super scary man..

The Foxe's Book of Martyrs..

it's like all on the persecutions of christains in the early ages..

seriously.. that totally spark a wild imagination in me.. like what will i do when it happens?

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next,,

tomorrow's teachers' day celebration.!

sadly, my P6 teachers have gone to other schools and MOE HQ.. hai..

it's okie.. i still have BPGHS' teachers...

now, imagine.., a canteen full of colours, smells, sights and sounds..

that's what's going to happen tmr dude..

yeah~

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next,,

i just realise i'm packed for the next week.

tmr there's badminton

then the day after that is the RipCurl's beach comp.

then the day after that i'll be going for CIP.

then the day after that got choir badminton again.

then the day after that is choir; volleyball

then the day after that is volleyball

so on and so forth...

better end here before get's ... bored.. and give those 'zzz's face...

so have fun this holiday!

randomness...

2008-08-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

CHIKUNGUNYA!

random.. was listening to news..

Feng Tian Wei! she's inspirational!

I'm really random today..

I got sunburn! super irritating!

on to business.. seriously..
Yesterday..
Instead of taking the MRT.. 7+2m took bus!
and we stood all the way.. and we were the FIRST to reach!
we grabbed a nice shade-less court.. luckily it was only the morning sun..
then we started playing BEACH VOLLEYBALL! at SENTOSA!
first time in the second semester of the year...

then came everyone else... but we kept to our court.. cause first come first serve...
and MRV.LEE came! we play all the way till it rained..
not once, not twice but thrice!
it's okie.. because of the rain.. we made a new friend.. stingRAY!
we're the fish-y family..
Goldfish, funsized jellyfish, stingray.. btw.. we were unbeatable for 4 games straight!
of course we got tired.. therefore we lost.. but then it allowed me to stop playing if not i'll get cooked!

so 7+2m+2g+yt+jy+am., went to bath and eat! vivocity! actually it's harbourfront..
anyway.. it's was KFC again... but it was great!.. we could talk freely...
luckily we left early.. cause if not,, i wont be here typing.. instead i think i'll be on the bed whining.. and couching.. and sneezing.. and just dying..

so yes, we got burnt, ate sand, built sand mountains..
but so what? we had fun!
i didnt know we were so social-able..
making friends is fun.. and BEACH volleyball may seem more fun than NORMAL volleyball..

I'm thinking of playing table tennis.. i think i didnt pick up the bat for more than ..5 years?
I remember the church's youths had mini tournaments.. and i somehow will enter the semis?,, hahas.. too bad the table is now gone..
badminton? tabletennis? swinmming? volleyball? touch rugby? archery? basketball?
i'm getting lazy..

I have no more motivation to study.. since next week is going to be a holiday!
i'm anticipating the arrival of ... not only the holidays.. but also my violin results.. it's coming out soon! so scary...
PRAY!

next outing? saturday.. RIPCURL's Beach Volleyball Competition..
7+2m? ready for the bluff?

i'm seriously missing out on trainings.. sad.. it's okie.. i'll work twice as hard.. but in the comforts of my own home..
I miss flying... on airplanes..

In Christ Alone.

2008-08-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This cornerstone, this solid ground,
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My comforter, my all in all—
Here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone, Who took on flesh,
Fullness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness,
Scorned by the ones He came to save.
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied;
For ev'ry sin on Him was laid—
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay,
Light of the world by darkness slain;
Then bursting forth in glorious day,
Up from the grave He rose again!
And as He stands in victory,
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me;
For I am His and He is mine—
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death—
This is the pow'r of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No pow'r of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home—
Here in the pow'r of Christ I'll stand.

best.

2008-08-19T16:52:00.000+08:00

you dont have to lift your head up high and say 'I'm the best'
you can just look straight into the person's eyes and say 'I've done my best'
That's good enough.

what am i talking?

Exams are over but i still cant play volleyball? why?
All because there are fixed days to train. can I train with the boys?
Like by this next year, i'll be a potato couch.
I may still have my ball sense but so what? I still cant train!
I MISS VLEE!
i feel like crying everytime i think about the past man. it's like sad that we cant go back, but forge a future together? I doubt so.

My throat is killing me.. it's been this way for 4 whole days! damn it!
my head and throat is like taking turns. no fever; sorethroat. fever;no sorethroat. irritating!

MICHAEL PHELPS!
the greatest yet humblest olympian ever!

btw, I havent get any results back yet so dont ask!

101? damn it!

2008-08-12T20:17:00.000+08:00

101!
word of the day? d*mn it!

d*mn it,, ! evidence from yuanteng's blog...
Junhao checking results?.. like wth.. why must check?
d*mn it! I totally flunk can?!?

10 marks! gone!~ bye~
never study the fill in the blanks for chinese at all can? d*mn it!
totally thought it wont come out la.. d*mn it!
at least half the class never study that can? irritating! d*mn it!
first 2 words said upon looking at the paper? D*MN IT! oops.. wrong it was OH SH**!!
i was in a state of SHOCK!
and i finished the paper! woohoo~

english.. d*mn it... totally out of point.. i think..
coping with stress and de-stressing different right? d*mn it..
i totally crap.. not only that.. i crapped on de-stressing... d*mn it!
flunk language.. how great! charis you're the cleverest~!

D*MN IT!

you prayed and i lived,,~

History.. my favourite subject.. which i dont like studying on.. but for the sake of our dear.. Tiger tan.. I shall go and study, no MUG, for this paper.. i hope to score on this at least.. no other subjects shall surpass my history's A! or it's a T/U.. what the h* am i talking?

evidence from allisa's blog..
Take charge of your own life! sweetie,, you got to stand strong!
i think this CT2 has made me mad! hey.. i allierated the letter M! literature..

oh yar..
This part is dedicated to our dear dear.. principal Mr Lee S.H...
Thank you so much.! thanks for coming to watch us, trusting us to perform well.. for complimenting us and just making us feel so much better.. (doubt you will ever read this)
but f.y.i.. You're the best principal ever! woohoo~..
thanks for sending us home and spending so much money.,, you are so getting a gift from us... soon..

for everyone else.. STUDY HARD.. (like i will)
soaring together with heart and soul towards excellence..

TIME!

2008-08-11T17:59:00.000+08:00

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Life keeps You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
But Only God keeps You Going!

i started thinking..
the year's ending..
but what's progressing?

like it's so fast..
I blame TIME!
tmr CT2 already.. and i've not gotten over my midyear results.. ok,, i'm slow.. but seriously.. CT!

sec1?sec2?sec3? sec4?
so fast! irritating! and to think we really only bonded this year! argh! sheesh..

studying mugging stressing studying mugging stressing.. and the cycle goes on.. tragic..
pathetic,, pitiful..

replies

2008-08-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

tags replies:

>WANXIN: yeah! choir rocks!

>jeshrei: fine whatever.. linked

>Jus: ?

>Huiyu: linked.. and hi!

>yuanteng: I'm not weird! and welcome to Charis' blog.. :D:D

>chaos: hello.. thanks for coming. and updated lo..

>DEFA:D :HELLO!

>zhiyeeeee: dont jealous la.. it's okie de..

>edlyn(: :it's okie.. she's like that one.. and YO!

>zu: hey hey IFB! dummies forever!

Done..
NATHAN HARTONO! ahh~ *melts*

NDP 08'

2008-08-09T20:58:00.000+08:00

NDP 08

NDP08

NATHAN! *screams*

Pictures taken from Flickr.

I love Singapore!
Happy National Day people!

Cheer on Team SINGAPORE!

choir concert day

2008-07-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

My gosh! just had my choir concert!

was so FUN! and nice.. we were super high man!

pictures next time.. super shag already... but still very high!

dont get shocked by the amount of make-up used..

stage performances' need 2 times the amount of make-up.. i think.. XP

we had fun! I'm so high!

GREAT JOB CHOIR!
songwaves was a success!
BP CHOIR ROCK-ED!!

contradiction?!?

2008-07-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

I dont want to think about anything and everything.
Why does time fly so fast?

dude!

2008-07-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

dude, I dont know what to say.

i read the archives, like even though you edited it.. I was ____(adjective).
This makes me wonder..

Do I really know you?
Do I only know the outside you?
Do I want to know you?

I'm scared. What if everything that happened was ____?
I wanted to know you, you closed the door.
Now you're opening up. Thanks for trusting me.
But i still cant believe that you still ____ him!

I thought you were over him.
I thought you were over someone else.
I thought you were in a relationship.

I thought wrong.

Let's just stay as what we are now.. FRIENDS!
can just continue to trust and confide in each other okie?

all your post are like ___.
why cant i do that?
why cant i say out my true feelings?
what am i hidding?
or why am i scared?
for whatever reason,
i just cant live in the real world.

and ... ...

2008-07-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

sorry about the * thing.. i just had to post something to vent my anger on *.

haha.. today i was the ONLY setter.. so fun. so random.. you know why fun? cause finally i dont have to compete with seniors to practise. so irritating la. everytime you want to train but someone is there doing it.

I WANT TO TRAIN! choo choo train..

I'm not angry at seniors. NO~ i just want more ME time,, what is that?!? ME la.. duh..
and ...
...
...

THANK YOU CHINYEE! for spiking me.. and teaching me to bend! haha. like sec1 again..
and ...
...
...

THANK YOU AMANDA! for following me to the toilet.. haha.. i'm scared of toilets. ...
and ...
...
...

THANK YOU JUNHAO(coach)! for coaching me..? like duh.. ... haha.. and change my attitute from "i dont want to learn" to "i'm willing to learn!"
and ...
...
...

THANK YOU MR LEE! for giving us a strong mental foundation.so we dont break so easily. yay! btw, we miss you! haha(s)
and ...
...
...

THANK YOU SHAWN (coach)! for your always awesom-ic power spike.. woohoo~ ...
and ...
...
...

THANK YOU EVERYONE! for making training to be a success everytime! and being part of Cgirls and Bgirls! Bgirls08 making history!!

I sound like i'm either dying or leaving the team. so dumb, btw. I WANT TO START SCHOOLING IN LONDON! I want to study OVERSEAS! I miss USA,seattle! I miss my aunt and cousins and uncle! I'm drooling on my pillow?!? wth.. just joking haha..

I posted .. Zhiyee dont complain. I did post! and very long somemore.

PS. Thanks!allisa and syaz for always making training so fun and funny and enjoyable! THANKS! and rmb to RELAX! okie dokie? hah..

HAVE FUN!

****

2008-07-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

I always WANT to sleep but i always CANT sleep.. WHY?!?

this is so not helping me recover..
my muscles are GROWing! hah.. so RANDOM. ,, ..

the guys are going to finals.. (kindda slow but yar..)
we are going to watch them.. (obviously..)
I am so going to watch.. (duh.. and skip *)
and that's FINAL!

I feel like quitting *!
I'm like always missing *..
so why bother going for *
super waste time la.
especially when i dont really like *
* * * * everytime also *
* very fun ar?!? crazy people!

* is not what your think... want to know what * is then msg me at.. ******** haha.. find me and i'll tell you.

bottom line is I DONT LIKE *!!

Fun bazaar 08

2008-07-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

Menu-drawing..

who's cheesecake does this belong to?!?

Our wonderful (slacking) Cashier!

Xinyu's hands are long! no wonder..

No hands!

Act-cute-ing

twist it.. (:

Above was bazaar time with 06Blinkers..

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Below was after bazaar time with cgirls07 and bgirls08

Mini grp pic..

Cordelia's-perfect-candid-Lingying's shot..

Our BIRTHDAY girl! ALLISA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Jiayu and zhiyee

Zhiyee and Syaz.

WATER BASH! yay..

the drenched birthday girl and me and the extra invisible force..

Today was fun..

Cgirls' 07!

2008-07-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

It's okie..

thank you allisa,syaz and invisible force for cheering me up..

I'm kindda slow.. the impact only hit me when i came back to school.. hai..
charis you're forever slow..

Cgirls 07(-4ppl)

hah! I'm finally the tallest!! hiphiphooray! even taller than SHAWN!
muahaha!

Bazaar tmr.. everybody come to the hall! and come to my stall! the cheesecake rocks! (if there is)
It's really very nice..

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Thanks guys.. I really cracked today.. and it was you'all who brought back my confidence,, (I puked! argh!eww..)
Anyway, even though we are not playing as one whole team, we will and always be..
wuzhong VB Cgirls'07.

I love you guys man! I'm straight..!
invisible force buddy! >>SKNAHT (figure it out!)

I will miss you guys too! Have fun..

Failure is not the absence of success but the birth of it. -CHARIS-

get up, get out and let's play! -Nickeleon-

I grew! >>RANDOMNESS.

new word - sodomy ask syaz.. it was taught by this corrupted girl!

happy

2008-07-02T20:53:00.000+08:00

look! I fit in!

A random 'fan?' lols

I love this BABY!

Ahh~ the guys are so sweet.. haha

see how nice the village was..

I'm dying.. ?!?

haha.. i should post happy happy one..

I miss thailand..

happy happy happy happy.. lalalalala

okie.. charis is gone.. haha and she's back.. gosh.. i'm so crapping..

Invisible force buddy! thanks.
Cgirls07! thanks. and KAI XIN DA! ... haha
Bgirls08! Work hard play hard and just do your best.. thanks!
Coach! ahh~ thanks.. dude i'm like saying the same thing 4 times.. how fun.. anyway, i dunno la.. i want to say something but i forgot.. oh no.. i have dementia..

Church pals! ahh~ I totally miss you guys man.. haha.. we should go out together SOON! youth camp! i'm so going to be there.. :D

and bottom line is THANKS and THANKS.. and i love using the word 'DUDE'!

we won..

2008-06-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh.. we won! we won Dunman sec? or is it Dunman High?
Anyway it was super close.. and we were actually losing until Amalina serve! she super power man! So bad, make the person crack,..
BP:DH/S
1st set>25:18
2nd set>(not sure. last saw..was..)17:25
3rd set>25:22

The last set, we super high.. we were actually losing 16:22.. then Amalina power serve.. then 23:22. then they serve then they make mistakes.. we were screaming and yelling everywhere and to everyone.. I never played so happily before.. and without any stress.. ahh~ it feels so good!
Come on girls.. another match on friday! can we do it? YES! YES! YES! haha.. so lame

If you dont want to dampen your read.. dont continue.. the bottom will be angry?pissed?emo?

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I'm the 3rd in the family.. no one as a motivitation. yet you want me to do well, to excel, especially in music.. i'm only a fast learner, not a musically inclined person.. grade 8? never knew it was so stressful!

I'm like so stressed man!
but thank the lord, no one knows..
I'm a good hider..

Why? not that i look down on my brothers.. but.. i have no one to match up too.. i feel i have already accomplished a lot.. Complacent Charis!
I really lost the motivation for music,, i failed.. the first time i had ever failed! now must retake.. very fun ar? $300 leh.. i'm like a super money waster.. no money still want waste.. Save la..
I think we're experiencing financial difficulty.. and time difficulty..

Now i have an extra class, tuesday nights.. aural! I'm so going to die at an early age..

Random..

2008-06-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

The Lord of the Rings' Eragon is so handsome! *melts*ahh..
I watched it again today..
LOL.. -.-" my brother just read this and threw a pillow at me.. argh!
haha..

just a random post..

back and changed!

2008-06-18T19:42:00.000+08:00

HEY people! I'm back! from the wonderful land of thailand!

11/6/08
Woke up at 4 cause was too excited.. then wash up at 5.. said goodbye to the house at 6..
reach the airport at 7. quite fast.. cause i was dreaming of*ahem* all the way.. haha..
check-in then prayed outside the departure hall and off we went.. i was super disorientated that day.. super blur.. had fever ON the plane.. i love flying! touched down around 1230. which is 1130 thai. from now on will be thai time okie?, so met chris and buddy. then went to CHIANG MAI FLORA.
went to gateway. and had a small scavenger hunt. at the nearby market. we were the 2nd to finish. yay.. we, meaning me and my dad. the 1st was justin and pris.
okie then went back,. and around 5+ the geylang methodist secondary school volleyball boys came, talked to the coach for a while.. then off they went.
Dinner we ate Northern thai food with our HANDS! so fun..

Seems like this post will be very long.. brace brace..

12/6
-Morning Devotion(MD)-
travelled 4+ hours to Chiang Rai and then to SamYak Village.. the children there are so adorable.. And the toilets.. amazing.. squats and manual. no shower.. you have to use a tub..
and i was stunned by something.. dont ask.. and the guys there.. my gosh.. will elaborate on the next day.. so the meals were basically rice and veges.
-Debrief-
Oh, i love the mime.. so cool. i love the song!

13/6 (last day in samyak)
-morning devotion-
breakfast.. rice again. then went down to the pastor's plantation. the way was super steep.. almost fell. then visitation. and justin and he quote'mai pben rai'..super funny la.. then lunch.. and we were stuck in the rain.. so we did woodcraft in the pastor's hse. then 'bai boat' which is went to church. to do the activities.
then went back which is picture time! aww the guys were so shy.. i somehow like shy-er guys.. opps.. haha. took a picture which some of them the rest were too shy.. took loads of pictures with the girls. so the night went by with pictures.
-Debrief-

14/6
-MD-
travelled 1+ hours to AhLie Village. wah.. the toilet there super cool la.. like out-house like that. stayed at the pastor's house. and yohn(John) is so cute! he's only 9 months old. he always laugh at me actually i make him laugh! slacked then visitation.
-Debrief-

15/6(last day in AhLie)
-MD-
all the meals are rice btw.. morning spent slacking.. then played with the kids. the flying thing.. then night time activities.. the chair games so fun man.. then mimes then glow-in-the-dark things.Then pictures again. but not as much.. cause the primary and secondary kids are in school. so group pictures then.
-Debrief-

16/6
-MD-
then travelled to samyak to get the remaining things. wow.. ahsi4's driving super good la.. then he super nice also. then trip to AhLie and back super dangerous la.. it's like on the mountains super high la.. if drop sure die.. so super exciting.. so after Samyak took another 4+hours drive back to ChiangMai. then to GengYun. met work! she's so fun to play with.. and she dont bite.. if you know how to handle her.. btw, work is a dog. she's very posessive.. very scary..
we ate out.. met Nen(Amporn) and her's sis (Ampai) . They're really very strong in faith and very focus to study.
-Debrief-

17/6
-MD-
This time breakfast is american! then lunch is noodles again.
went to the drug rehab. then the orphanage.(Blessing Home) then back to Chiangmai Flora.. dinner with Chris. super nice dinner..and Chris is super FUNNY! then off we went to the night market. walked rounds and rounds and rounds.. haha..
-Debrief-

18/6
-MD-
Airport! breakfast was western again! finally haha.. airbourne at 1155. then slept almost throughtout. then the toilet.. is sucktion one.. super scary.. so noisily loud!
reach Singapore at 4? around there.. Now is Singapore time.
replied SMSes.. then slacked until now.. Homework still not done la.. sure die..

So i sat an airplane, open top truck, a songteow (thai taxi), van and a car. I miss the wind in my face while travelling.. and the cool and calm environment. Next year.. i'll go again.. definitely!

Hope you had fun reading this super duper long post.. haha.. :D so bottom line is that..
I'm Back and Changed!

Leaving..

2008-06-10T16:32:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving TMR! haha.. pray for me..

update.
9/6/08(Yesterday)
Had make up training with the guys..and Shawn as coach.. Vincent went to London.. and junhao went to thailand.. haha.. yeah.. i'll "meet" them.. -.-

The guys did really weird warmups. so funny.. haha. -.-// :) then we did 3 men defence.. and i was setter.. i love this drill! haha..
Okie.. most of the time.. the sec2 guys were training downstairs so the hall was only filled with 5 sec1s. and ME! so we did gangqiu and gouqiu. then first ball then the guys were taught diving.. then.. erm.. i.. forgot le.. opps.
the PT! is the chinups. lucky i'm a girl! so no need do chinup only need hang there. then did jumping on 1 leg. as high as possible.. sounds slacky but it isnt. then go home! and i only just realise, DarrenTan is full of rubblish!

-At the busstop.-
The guys so lame la.. take same only.. doesnt mean we're in a relationship right.. and i dont support jie-di-lian can?.. so took 190 with the guys and they're really funny cause they're full of weird and disgusting ideas! plus, they talk bad about Vincent.. how can? Vincent so nice la.. even Shawn laugh.. so evil..

And just realise Shawn resembles someone i know.. and who? My oldest brother.. I dont know why but just feel they resemble each other a lot! hah..
And yes.. i was the only girl there training.. so extra right.. but i had loads of FUN!
10/6/08
The hall was filled with people so I didnt really like today's training cause a lot of people then cannot do a lot of practical.. so kindda bad mood and bored. then PT.. same as yesterday..
Then went home with Amanda! and she left me in the bus all alone.. and i am here typing all this irrelavant updates.. hah

So i'm leaving tmr. Like somehow when you're not going to do something (eg.training) you value it. I will miss training.
If anyone wants to send me off.. I'll be in the airport at 6am! hah.. and only flying off at 8+am. just saying.. so anyone? just have to come before 730.. hah.. i doubt anyone will come .. it's so EARLY! but i will really appreciate it.

Have fun ya? your somehow without me always have more fun.. so i'm the spoiler.. it's okie~.

I want to sleep le.. and it's only like 5pm.. just think i have to wake up at 4am.. oh no!

I'll miss you..
I actuallly didnt know that i felt this way towards you.
Zu i'll tell you ASAP!
ahh.. i'm in love with someone who is like o* than me..
hai.. ahh but he's really nice..
I'll miss you!

quiz by yuxian.

2008-06-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

Quiz time! yuxian wanted me to do this.. so here goes..

1. Who was your first crush?
shhh.. it's a secret.. it's private and personal.

2. Who is more important to you?Friends or boyfriends?
Of course friends.! Duh..

3. Who are the people you trust most?
close friends and family.

4. Do you have enough confidence?
obviously not!..

5. What do you hate?
The things that i hate.. i dont really know..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
This sounds familiar.. haha.. you want to have lesson? jut joking.. the answer is yes..

7. What is your goal for this year?
To change my attitude towards everything.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Yes..

9. Have you broken someone's heart until he/she wants to commit suicide?
obviously.. i was so shocked and touched.. haha.. NOT!

10. What feeling do you love most?
THAT kind of feeling.. ..

11. What requirements do you want from the other half?
This sounds familiar again.. To trust, love and be faithful to me. has to be handsome and rich(at least alittle above average).

12. List out 5 best friends of yours.
1.
2.
3.
4.
5. cannot say.. it's sensitive..

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Obviously right?.. this question is dumb..

14. Do you like S.H.E?
I dont really listen to them but i find them okie..

15. What do you think are the most important things in your life?
My life.. and everything and everyone involved in it.

16. Do you like anime?
Nope.. rather prefer reality shows..

17. Describe the person who tags you in 5 words.
I really really dont know.. hey that's 5 words!

18. What have you done to please yourself?
SLEEP!

19. Do you love yourself?
This is another dumb question! yes.. duh..

20. List down 8 people to do this quiz.
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8. Anyone who wants..

4 more days till I go thailand..
1 more day till the guys go thailand.. Bon voyage. Have fun ya?
will see your off tmr! will miss your.. yeah.. as if.. haha. ;D

HOMEWORK!

When we work, we work.
When we pray, God works.

..

2008-06-04T09:48:00.000+08:00

Maybe I'm just wrong.
Everyone was giving in to me yet..
I didnt realise and took advantage of it.

And it was me hurting people
not others
How irresponsible am i?
How stupid can i be?

This time i have to pay.
This time i really have to accept the punishment given.

Why am i so blind?
Why cant i express my thoughts properly?
Why am so 'closed'?

I guess,
I'll forever me closed.

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now why is everything about me?
Let have a change..

guys (girls), since your have a new setter,
let her have a chance.
Dont treat her bad. She's not me so your have to get used to it!
Then because she doesnt have A.P. your should be happier with her.
Have fun ya?

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Thanks for everything.
I guess i wont have the motivation to fight for the position at the moment.
Thanks for everything ya?
I try again.. soon.
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I'm sorry for everything.
I didnt know what came over me.
I was never forced to do something that i didnt want ever.
Maybe because of that.
I'm really sorry.
Thanks for all the time you've put into coaching me.
And i'm sorry, I've just wasted it.
I'm a useless talent. I dont even have talents in the first place.
I'm really dumb to treat you like that.
I really have A.P.
It's the right thing to take me out.
To have a breather. To rest. To find back motivations.
What i want to say 'I'm SORRY.'

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worst day

2008-06-02T14:04:00.000+08:00

Charis! you're really an arse!
You're really dumb.
Why didnt you tell them your stomach hurt like shit?! And you needed to go home to eat medicine..
You're really really super duper dumb!
Charis is an arse!

I meant it when i said i dont want to play for Nationals.
I am not going to cry!
Only big babies cry, only losers cry.

I admit, I am the scared-iest; dumb-est; most useless; most retarded ever living person.
Lord you have to show me the purpose of living SOON!

Your only want to win. you dont care about how your do it. your just want to win.
do you care about the others?
Do you know that the other team is so much more bonded than us?
Do you know that we actually hurt people's feelings when you say ___?

Your can scold me, can hurt me.. whatever. I dont care!
I know i will be out casted already..
I dont mind.
I'm an introvert in the first place.
To know you guys is already a pleasure.

Once friends, now mortal enemies.
it's amazing how strangers become friends
I wanted to stop here; but it continues with
But it's sad when friends become strangers.

I rather be happy doing something i like, at the place i want
than to be
angry, pissed and sad doing something i dislike, at the place i dont belong.

I dont belong anywhere near your. I dont fit in at all!
I dont want to belong with your at all..
I dont belong in the school either.

I JUST DONT BELONG!

Recap on BB camp..

2008-05-30T07:10:00.000+08:00

AHH!!..
haha..
ahah..

randoming..

okie.. recap-ing:
28/5/08
woke up at like 7+ to get ready for camp in SENTOSA! with the primary school BB and GB.
There was familiar faces like Cheryl and DongHee. And a new trainer for the camp.. called..
Gavin LOW.. we waited for the bus like 25 mins.. then came a bus.. but for Brownies.. then a minibus went pass.. then a car then a taxi then FINALLY OUR bus came.. and we were like 20mins off schedule.. so the uncle very efficient.. we reached Sentosa on the dot.

Stayed at Coasta Sands Resort.. which is absolutely amazing!!
there we met 2 more trainers.. Ms Ng and Mr Tan.. and GAME TIME!
we played AMAZING RACE sentosa edition! hah.. was fun until it started raining..
we were the most relaxed group.. because we took the bus everywhere.. while the other group ran.. woohoo~ we rock!
and we were starving.!
At one stop we did almost the same thing as IPW.. where we had to protect an EGG..
And this group of Primary school kids are really clever.. it had to be as tall as JiaHui which is at least 130cm.. and the egg must be above Kim's knee which is around 90 cm.. and they did it and the structure STOOD! amazing right? Keming ROCKS!
-bath time- it was still raining.
-LUNCH-
-free time 30mins.- still drizzling

The hut has AIR CON!

then preparations for skit! my group did JOSEPH and his brothers and JOSEPH the dreamer..
so we did rehearsals and props.. all in 3-4 hours.. with the help of Sir Dennis and Sir Peter and our dear Mr LOW.. then it was dinner..
We had... BBQ!! so nice the food..

interacted with one another.. talked to the New Principal of Keming! I'm a shy person so it's a miracle i talked with the sabo-ing of others of course,.
And this really really cute boy called KYLE.. helped me with everything.. from the getting of food to the clearing of rubbish.. he's so cute.. when i say i wanted an Otah.. he got it for me.. when i said i wanted Satay.. he got 5 sticks for me.. so cute la.. and he's only P3
>side track>
-2 things Kyle likes:
1.Air Con rooms; 2. Helping people ( which is really seriously true)
-2 things Kyle dont like:
1. getting bullied; 2. getting burnt (this is dont get.. why would he get burnt?!?)

About Cheryl (P6):
She like everything and dislikes nothing..

>back on track>
Sir Dennis was nicknamed 'Monkey' and Sir Peter 'Monkey's friend'..
I dont know why...
anyway,.. the BBQ was awesome!

then it was SHOW TIME!Kyle was samson! so cute.. he used newspaper to stuff his shirt to look like huge muscles.. he's so cute! ahh~

then was mashmellow time.. we had BBQ again.. just for the mashmellows.. Kyle got one stick for me too!! again.. haha..
then i showered again.. and Mr Low left due to another commitment to another school.. so BYE~
and we were to sleep at 1030pm.. i chat with yuanteng SMS until 11? and about?.. *ahem*..
and i woke up again at 3am.. cause i couldnt sleep properly.. the room was a hut but the aircon was super cold! brr~

29/5/08:
woke up at 6+am oh yar my room mates..
I know their names okie.. It's JiaHui(P3), KaiWen(P3), ShuYi(P5) and me(Sec2).. I'm the oldest participant..
and i can get CIP hours for volunteering to go for this camp.. YAY~~

had breakfast then we did morning games at the sapphire hall and we played at the beach.. i was thinking about *ahem* again.. while walking by the sea.. with sand under my feet and the splashing of waves against the rocky sidelines.. random.. haha.. then went back at 1030am.. pack up and went for lunch.. then we had a card game.. the four words we were to solve was

LET US
EXEMPLARY
ATTENTIVE
DILIGENT

making the word LEAD also.. which i was not applicable to answer.. and then played card heartattack.. left the at.. i forgot.. but i reached home around 2+ and is now coughing.. ahh~
tmr still must make up training..

And thank you yuanteng for accompanying me to the guys training.. plus Zhiyee and Kailing.. I suddenly feel close the yuanteng.. we BONDED!! YAY~ haha she's honoured..

So that's the recap..
BTW-
Shawn's training is AWESOME! so FUN! especially the recieving of spikes part.. but not the making fun of me part cause by GOH CHIN YEE!! ahh~ never mind.. IT was still fun.. I was super super super super super super super HIGH!~

I got a lot of mosquito bites! ahh.~ Itchy!

Homework time.. C'ya..

10 Quotes on the Joys of Motherhood

2008-05-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

By Myriam Gabriel-Pollock

Why do athletes always look into the camera and say, "Hi, Mom"? Why are florists working overtime every Mother's Day? Why do people always thank their mother when they receive an award? Because behind any successful and happy person, chances are good that you'll find a great mom! Enjoy these quotes on the joys of motherhood and the inspiration that moms give their kids.

A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity. It dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.
-- Agatha Christie (1890-1976), English novelist and playwright.

When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. You are connected to your child and to all those who touch your lives. A mother always has to think twice: once of herself and once for her child.
-- Sophia Loren (1934- ), Italian motion-picture actor.

We are together, my child and I. Mother and child, yes, but sisters really, against whatever denies us all that we are.
-- Alice Walker (1944- ), American author and poet.

A mother's arms are more comforting than anyone else's.
-- Princess Diana (1961-1997), Princess of Wales from 1981 to 1997.

There never was a woman like her. She was gentle as a dove and brave as a lioness. The memory of my mother and her teachings were, after all, the only capital I had to start life with, and on that capital I have made my way.
-- Andrew Jackson (1767-1845), seventh president of the United States (1829-1837).

When a child enters the world through you it alters everything on a psychic, psychological and purely practical level.
-- Jane Fonda (1937- ), American motion-picture actor, political activist, and writer and producer of exercise books and videos.

If you bungle raising your children, I don't think whatever else you do well matters very much.
-- Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy Onassis (1929-1994), wife of the 35th president of the United States, John Fitzgerald Kennedy.

It is not until you become a mother that your judgment slowly turns to compassion and understanding.
-- Erma Bombeck (1927-1996), American newspaper columnist and author.

Motherhood has a very humanizing effect. Everything gets reduced to essentials.
-- Meryl Streep (1949- ), American motion-picture actor.

The strength of motherhood is greater than natural laws.
-- Barbara Kingsolver (1955- ), American author.

Got this from msn.com..

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

HCI no.10!

2008-05-11T11:43:00.000+08:00

Just realise that the team is moving further and further actually..
even though we look like we're fine..
We're BGIRLS now.. act like one..
Only one training as a Bgirl, I already miss Cgirls alot!

I'm in love~ with..
HCI no.10! haha.. he's really cool..

Had AGM (annual general meeting) yesterday and had $6 buffet lunch..
joke with weishi say this is $6! must well eat out.. opps! haha..
Allisa didnt come sadly.. if not it'll be an even more enjoyable day..
For the positions refer to Zhiyee's blog..

Training yesterday was very tiring.. I repeated 'I'm very tired' almost 20 times on the bus home with PohHian.. I was totally crapping with her la..
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He is finally willing to teach me new things.. and actually coach me,, This is so direct w.t.h..
But it feels good learning new things especially JUMP SET!!
I got the hang of it and really happy!
tried the 'point' thing with fara, still trying.. we'll get at least the distance first okie? then the height alrighty? Training was really fun..
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Side track==
I really want something i will never get..
I really dont want some things that i already have
I miss someone I meet everyday..
I paradoxing,..
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Why-s?
Why must He love so much?
Why did He save us?
Why is it us?
Why Why Why Why

God so loved the world that He gave His one and only son that whoever believed in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16 NIVbible.

I glad for you _____ for acknowledging Him.. It's great and cool! I'll help you be a stronger person in Christ.
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My post are always long but irrelevant(spelling?) and slow in updating..
I read Zu's *ahem* blog and went through the archives and realise that indeed alot has happened in these 2 years..

And the next year we're all be in different classes, maybe different schools.. different CCAs, different courses..
~I will never be the same again~

I love~*ahem*!